Journalling & Yin Energy

I used to be addicted to a to-do list, it gave me a sense of control and I loved the satisfaction of physically checking things off. However, the more I learned about self love, the more I realised that my obsession with lists & tasks, was another way of my not allowing myself to fully relax and just ‘be’. My to-do list culture was at the same vibration as my body in a ‘stressed’ high cortisol state, and I actually needed to learn to counteract this not feed it. There is of course a balance, if I flowed into everything in my life, nothing would be done, no ills would be paid etc.

However embracing more yin energy can really help a self love journey, it sends the signals to your subconscious that you are relaxing, that you trust the process. I used to be so scared of entering a weekend without back to back plans, I couldn’t bare the thought of having to spend time alone or time alone that wasn’t scheduled to fill the time. The first steps of this can be painful, but learning to embrace more of the yin, really helps your nervous system in the long term and helps yu feel more at peace with yourself. I do love to write however so I still wanted to be able to do this, in a less scheduled / planned way. What I have found really helpful is ‘free-journaling,’ you essentially get pen to paper and just write, with no agenda, no theme, no subject and see what comes up. You do this for as long as you think is enough – so no set time, and it is truly fascinating what you can say. You don’t even care for it making ‘sense’ grammatically or in any way. I used to take this a step further and do free journal letters to self.

There’s something quite powerful about physical pen to paper – we spend so much time on our phones, on a computer and we actually learned to write, to journal in the pen and paper format, so it helps relax our brains into more of a yin state itself. I also believe you can access your intuition more with pen to paper. So I wrote this free journal letter to self a couple of years ahead and I even posted it to myself for added affect haha! When I later received the letter it didn’t make much sense – it was in English and in sentences but I just thought it was almost like an Alice and Wonderland type riddle – anyway a few weeks ago I was looking for a book and I found the letter wedged in there, when I opened it I had full blown goosebumps – it made SO much sense, and I wanted to share this because I think sometimes with self love – we are obsessed with knowing all the answers NOW, whereas a real self love practise is also just trusting yourself that everything will be ok, without the conditions of loads of factors. You always have yourself, your ability to self soothe, your ability to ground and centre – the rest is external noise and I love free journaling as a bit of proof that our higher self knows what we don’t, and that’s ok – because in time we will realise and know that we should trust so much more in the process and the NOW.